.the bar.

Well, I suppose that todays blog is more of a personal one than anything else.. Something I feel like if I make public I can maybe overcome.. This is not intended to encourage, discourage, uplift, or anything else.. It's mostly just to be heard or read I guess since we are on the internet.. Something happened the other night that really made me realize who I am, what I want, and what I will never go back to.. We, because we all do it, set a bar for our lives.. We have decided what is good enough and what is not.. We know what we need, what we wish we had, and what we will not tolerate.. I know what I want, I know what I'm looking for, and I know what I am not willing to subject myself to.. Yet no matter how many times I assure myself of these things I can always make exceptions.. I always find myself saying, "Well, I know that's not something I agree with, but it's ok because..." But it's never ok.. It's never ok for me to say I know that this is what I want, but I'll change it because I want this to be able to fit into that category.. What if for once I set the bar and I left it exactly where I put it.. Not only if I left it there but I always expected better than it.. What if I said I'm not willing to take anything less than that, and nothing can change that.. How many more steps further would I get? As opposed to my five steps forwards and ten steps back.. I think starting right now I know where I want my bar to be, and I'm going to leave it there, no matter what..