.How 'bout them Buckeyes.

Well...last night was a big night. I had so much homework to do that I never thought I would finish..I came home from school and thought I'm going to start right away and I'm not going to quit working until I'm finished...at 6:00 I woke up with my Bio book laying in my face, pencil in hand...not quite the diligent work I had imagined. I had a huge project due today and a ton of make up work to finish and only two hours and 15 minutes until kick-off. Well I finished my homework and thought that this was going to be the best night of my life, OSU was going to be BCS champions...not so much. We came out strong, in the first two minutes we had a 10-0 lead...O-H-I-O. Beanie ran a 65 yard TD, bowl history. But, this is a familiar story when it comes to my Buckeyes, kind of like the bowl game we played in last year...before the half was over the Tigers had 24 unanswered points, not quite the defense I was expecting. I'm sure you all know how this story ends...Buckeyes lose. NO GOOD. I thought for sure that Jim would not stand for that display but in the end it's the boys on the field who make the game...and Boeckman apparently loves to run the ball himself. Anyways we went into the game the #1 seeded team, and we're still leaving with a strong program and a great history. I hope next year we don't freeze when it counts... I still love my Buckeyes :)

.them or Me?

Today started off as a very rough day, from the minute I woke up it seemed that things were in complete chaos. Things did not get better as I had hoped they would and I started to fall into a worldly state of mind. Then, once I got home from school everything changed...
A little background information..Several months ago God was really beginning to reveal things to me and lay things on my heart. I felt like I hadn't heard from Him in so long or maybe I just hadn't been listening. When I finally heard Him, it was a complete, slap in the face if you will. I felt like all the things that I loved had been taken from me, but I felt like I remained in a state where I was thankful and knew that if they were gone that if was for a reason and that God still had a plan for my life. God however knew better and showed me and it brought me to a place of true brokenness. For the first time in as long as I can remember I didn't feel strong, I didn't feel ok and I didn't feel like things were going to look up any time soon.
Back to the present..Today an amazing door was opened for me and it is only because of Gods continued goodness in my life. This opportunity could change my entire lifestyle, but I've already been given something that has done that once before. I accepted Jesus Christ as my Savior, and no matter what opportunity comes along there will never ever again be something as amazing or life changing as that was. My dilemma is that if I take this opportunity I need to still be able to keep God number one in everything that I do. I need to realize that the only reason I am capable of doing this is because of what God is doing in my life and if I don't continue to put my life in his hands this too will be gone. I need to stop saying that I love God and act like I love God. I need to quit judging others and look inside my own heart and see the things that God has shown me time and time again.
It is ok for me to love the things in my life, but things will never look up if I continue to love the things in my life more than I love my Savior.
So when God says to me, you have always loved those things more than me, where do I go from there?

.For These Times.

Well it's been a long time, hasn't it? I don't really have anything going on or new to share but I would like you all to read the lyrics to this song. I personally love country music..and this is a song by Martina McBride that has really touched me and been heavy on my heart.


In these times in which we live
where the worst of what we live
is laid out for all the world on the front page
and the sound of someone's heartbreak
is a soundbite at the news break
With a close shot of the tears rollin down their face
Blessed be the child who turns a loving eye
and stops to pray
For these times in which we live

In these most uncertain hours
where the balance of power
is a fight that is fought everyday
And freedom is a word
some cry out and some whisper
and some are just too quick to give away
Blessed be the one who stands by the one
on the battle line
For these times in which we live

Well give me a heart full of tender mercy
and arms I will open wide

For these times in which we live
Seems like the only answer is
givin up on findin one at all
and we hide behind unsure
pull the blinds and lock the doors
and hang a pleasant picture on the wall
Blessed is the believer who knows love is our redeemer
and the only breath of life For these times in which we live

Well give me a heart full of tender mercy
and arms I will open wide
Give me words full of loving kindness
and hands ready to hold up a light
For these times in which we live

.cleaning up.

Rocky, which is my extremely obnoxious, yet cute dog, gave me a sort of lesson last night if you will.. I got Rocky from a friend, and I knew my Dad would not want to keep a dog, so I had to play my cards right.. I do not encourage this kind of behavior.. So I told my Dad that we were going to "babysit" the dog for a friend, and about two weeks rolled around when my Dad said, "When is this dog going back?" Well I had this great big sob story about how he didn't have a home to go back to and blah blah blah.. Long story short I win, we have a dog.. Sometimes I regret it, haha.. Anyways point being, even though he was my dog, he now spends 24-hours a day with my father, and the only time he even looks at me is if I have food in my hands.. He is HUGE! Last night he sat outside my room for a half an hour and whined and scratched at the door because he wanted in.. So, I thought that I would be a nice pet owner and let him in, play with him, have good times, da da da da da.. So, in order for Rocky to come into my room I have to pick nearly everything up off the floor, make sure all my shoes are put away, not have any cords readily available for chewing, make sure my garbage is against my desk so he can not knock it over, and close my closet door so he does not get my clothes.. As you can see, this is quite an ordeal.. So I'm like this is great, he's cute, he actually doesn't hate me.. After ten minutes of being in my room I am in a very similar situation, he is laying at the door whining and scratching, but this time he is on the outside looking in.. Lord, could the dog just make up his mind? So my thought process is, because I am a cruel person, it took me the same amount of time to get everything ready so that you could come in as it did for you to decide you wanted out, YOU ARE STAYING IN.. So I got up and let him out.. It made me think of all the times I have asked a friend for something, or God for something.. How many times was I so intent that I get that one thing, that those people made accommodations and sacrifices so that I could get exactly what I thought I wanted.. Then when the time came I decided it was no longer as sweet as I imagined it was, and I want out.. How much time and effort, how much preparation is just wasted.. I would like to apologize to those who went out of their way to do something nice for me that I completely brushed off..

.leading.

...A leader can not lead, if he does not know where he is going...